Why have I still not eaten breakfast at a time where some people would be having lunch?
Why do I eat all day when Im stressed or away?
Why do I love eating but also love hunger?Taylor
I don’t want love
I just want to feel and see sparks
Like a faulty cable
Sparks flying between out lips and teeth
And intertwined tongues
I know I’ll end up getting electrocuted or burnt
But for now I will enjoy the fireworks
And the bonfire will come later
I want to have my heart forget its rhythm
Legs not know how to walk without wobbling
Stomach bubbling and fluttering
I will enjoy the blood rushing to my cheeks
I don’t give a fuck about the consequences
Light the firework
Plug in the cord
Let the sky be lit up
I wasn’t made for loving
Just for a bit of fun
I wont ask for your support
because that would just be dumb
Because I’m not worth the pain to love
My love isn’t worth the pain
you’ll be put through
Lets just leave it at friends
Because you can’t deal with my brain
Its missing a screw…
The scars on my wrists
remind me of this
intense feeling of pain.
Not the blood rushing out
nor the blade of my skin.
But the darkness,
the pain within.Taylor
As someone who still carries scars from their past, they are a reminder of where I was, compared to where I am now. They show me the darkness and pain that I felt, and although sad to have to carry it with me, its a positive reminder of where I came from, and where I don’t want to go again.