I wasn’t ready for you
Like a bird that can’t yet fly
How could I teach you to
Lifeless
Drained of all my strength
Drained of life
Lifeless
Is how I was left
But I’m back
And I’m teaching myself how to fly
So one day you will too
And I’ll be soaring through the skies
Before I ever get to meet you
Because I need to go through the worst
To teach you to navigate a storm
And feel the best
So that you can always feel my warmth
But today was not the time
As I have yet to build a nest
But one day I hope I will feel your life against my chest
Taylor Hopewell
Tag: heartbreak
Love myself
I can’t love someone else
I’m not ready
Saw something saying otherwise
Saying that you learn to love yourself through others loving you
No
Others love me and I just don’t
Others see this beauty somewhere in me
That I just can’t find
And I am trying everyday
But I just can’t understand how the thought of me can make someone smile
Or how my presence could be wanted
I don’t understand it
I don’t understand how I have been the one to break peoples hearts
I do understand
Its because I can’t love them
But they can love me
Something that I can’t do either
Taylor
Spark
I don’t want love
I just want to feel and see sparks
Like a faulty cable
Sparks flying between out lips and teeth
And intertwined tongues
I know I’ll end up getting electrocuted or burnt
But for now I will enjoy the fireworks
And the bonfire will come later
I want to have my heart forget its rhythm
Legs not know how to walk without wobbling
Stomach bubbling and fluttering
I will enjoy the blood rushing to my cheeks
I don’t give a fuck about the consequences
Light the firework
Plug in the cord
Let the sky be lit up
In lust
Not love
Taylor
Sorry
I’m sorry for hurting you
Just because I had to doesn’t mean its not true
I needed to put myself first
But the pain was put through you
I had to let you go
So I could grow
I’m sorry… but
Maybe you should try it too
Taylor
Your money, my time
You threw your money at me
Expected me to stay
It must have hurt when I threw it all away
When I said you didn’t love me
You showed me all my gifts
When I said you didn’t care
You said “I gave you all of this”
What can I say,
except for goodbye
You said I broke your heart
I think you broke mine
By putting a price on my love,
on my company, and time.
Taylor
As if people have to pay for my time, and once paid for I don’t have a choice. Not only with romantic relationships but also with family, money has been used agaisnt me (and others) where they tell you, you can not leave or disagree because they have given you so much. Its very belittling, to feel like someones put a price on you.