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Harming
Ive stopped harming myselfWith bottles and bottles every nightBut it was less painful than trying to sleep soberIve stopped harming myselfWith knives that I bring wherever I goBut all the new tattoos burn for longerIve stopped harming myselfBy bottomless loveBut I cry more, just alone.Have I really stopped harming myselfOr is trying to be strong…
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Giving up
While making positive changeIt still feels like giving upGiving up parts of me I’ve been known forIve lost the drunken confidenceIve lost the late night callsIve lost the spontaneity of writingand of writing on the wallsI no longer feel easyI feel everything a choreWaking up is easierBut just such a boreIve given up on holidaysI…
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My sobriety
Everything feels so much more romanticWhen you have drunk tinted memoriesThe first words, dances, kissesMean nothing in my sobrietyI feel like I’ve lost memoriesBut maybe I just see them clearerIt’s nice to look through the fogThrough the raindropsPouring down the windowAdding excitement to an overclouded, gloomy day.Everything’s feels easierWhen your body moves itselfThe first words,dances,kissesAre…
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It’s a shame I couldn’t see its light on your face
Will we always seethe same skyat night?If we’re far awaycould it change?It mightBut I’m glad that we sawthe same moon tonightWasn’t it beautiful!Half round, so very brightWasn’t it lovelyTo be sharing the same sight
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trigger
I sometimes loose control of my body My hands smack into my head repeatedly My eyes water with no end My heart rushes and bangs through my chest This can be caused when I have strong feelings that my brain can’t process. I wanted to sleep for hours and I couldn’t I wanted to feel…
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You can’t ask a broken person To believe your words with no actions With contrary reactions With promises unkept You can’t ask me to believe that you love me When what I want is just hug me All I need is a friend I can’t feel loved if you leave me I can’t feel loved…
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Lifeless
I wasn’t ready for you Like a bird that can’t yet fly How could I teach you to Lifeless Drained of all my strength Drained of life Lifeless Is how I was left But I’m back And I’m teaching myself how to fly So one day you will too And I’ll be soaring through the…
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WHO?
I dont believe anyone ever knows who they areBut yet everyone around me feel so set in stoneLike their quirks and habits will never changeEven if they do, they themselves stay the same.So why do I, does me, feel so uncertain?Like clay cracking every dayPieces lost, fillers found, finding ways to be enoughWays to still…